Ryan States

Better (When You're Older)

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Ryan States
2010

Story

 

This is a song about growing up gay. I wrote this in 1999 when I was first coming out. The lyric represents what I wish someone could have said to me when I was young and feeling isolated and alone.  

 

Motivated by the recent rush of queer youth suicides I've uploaded the full song on this page so it can be heard for free. You can also get the free download

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Lyrics

 
Paul is a boy very young
Grown-ups told him he was lucky
They said life is best when you’re a child
but it gets harder after a while
 
Clinging to the many 'I love you’s'
conditional love’s in abundance
Would they still want me if they knew?
Or will they stop saying “I love you”?
 
 
Childhood is easy for some
but I don’t envy the young
And trust me child
it gets better when you’re older
 
You can choose how you want to be
where you live and who you see
where you work and where you play
Life’s not so bad after you grow up...
 
 
His sisters never went through it
the struggles he faced everyday
It’s those kids on the playground
their parents taught them how to hate
 
Feeling like a loner
wrongly blaming himself
Big brother’s saying, “family’s forever”
but he’d take it back if he knew me better
 
 
Childhood is easy for some
but I don’t envy the young
And trust me child
it gets better when you’re older
 
You can choose how you want to be
where you live and who you see
where you work and where you play
Life’s not so bad after you grow up gay
 
 
[piano solo]
 
 
Life’s not so bad after you grow up gay
Do you still love me?